MMM……LITTLE NOTES….

mencintai dengan hati
mencintai tanpa mengharap imbalan hati
mencintai tanpa harus memiliki
hanya ilusi atau reality?
apakah mungkin dapat memberi dan mencintai tanpa memiliki
seperti itulah aku bulan kepada sang matahari
aku mecintainya..aku memujanya…
tetapi aku tak dapat menggapainya
karena aku dan dia teramat berbeda
karena aku dan dia terpaut jarak jauhnya
ia begitu dekat sekaligus terasa amat jauh
menggapainya sangat tak mungkin
namun demikian aku tetap mencintainya..
aku tetap menyimpannya dalam hatiku
berharap suatu hari dia akan sadar
dan berjalan kearahku
walu itu artinya menentang dunia……

udah berkali-kali terjadi
udah berkali-kali ngalamin
tapi selalu ada nilai positif yg bisa diambil…
lagi pengeeeennn banget sesuatu, tapi kok gk tercapai-capai yah?udah usaha, kerja keras gk lupa berdoa juga, tp tetep aja gk kesampaian….
sebel….bingung…….

kemarin habis ketemu sama teman2 zaman perjuangan dulu alis temen2 kuliah…..wah…berasa flashback yah, cuma beda lokasi ajah biasanya nongkrong di kampus yang penuh orang berseliweran, sekarang cuma da diruangan sempit tanpa pemandangan karena ngumpulnya dirumah…(he he heh), tp time do changes everything….bad or good.
masih sama gila, sama gk jelasnya juga……
lumayan buat refreshing otak… ha ha ha
makes me reailze mereka adalah temen2 yag paling tidak gw duga akan menjadi salah satu eh salah rame2 temen sejati gw yang selalu ada di samping gw dalam suasana apapun!
my second family……
love u guys……

Love isn’t funny
When it is burning inside
When all you think of
Is how to get through the night
And when you want it
It’s just a game that you play
And when you get it
They’re gonna take it away

Maybe it’s nothing
Maybe it’s all just in my mind
Maybe I’m foolish
Maybe it’s just a waste of time

But I don’t think so
Maybe I definately know
That maybe
Maybe I’m in love

So if you want it
You wanna come out to play
Then you can have it
Cos he’s got plans for the day
And if I want it
There’s no one out there for me
When you don’t need it
There’s plenty fish in the sea

Maybe it’s nothing
Maybe it’s all just in my mind
Maybe I’m foolish
Maybe it’s just a waste of time

But I don’t think so
Maybe I definately know
Why do I keep fooling myself
Why can’t I let go
This is not like me
But now I definately see
That maybe (oh-oh-oh-oh maybe)
Maybe I’m in love

Love isn’t funny
When it is burning inside
When all you think of
Is how to get through the night
And when you want it
It’s just a game that you play
And when you get it
They’re gonna take it away

Maybe it’s nothing
Maybe it’s all just in my mind
Maybe I’m foolish
Maybe it’s just a waste of time

But I don’t think so
Maybe I definately know
Why do I keep fooling myself
Why can’t I let go
This is not like me
But now I definately see
That maybe (oh-oh-oh-oh maybe)
Maybe I’m in love

Dulu ada temen yang bilang kalo cinta itu perjuangan….
sebuah hubungan cinta sebagian besar isinya perjuangan…
sempet berfikir…
masa iya siy….
ternyata temen gw itu bener banget!
cinta itu perjuangan…
mulai dari pertama naksir a.k.a seneng sama seseorang….
perjuangan dimulai….
kenalan….
pedekate….berjuang mendapakan perhatian, simpati dan hati..
kalo berhasil jadian, bukan berarti perjuangan selesai……
setelah “jadian” kita masih harus berjuang
menyamakan visi dan misi
meredakan emosi dan ego supaya gk berantem melulu,
berjuang belajar mengalah, memahami apa mau orang lain, berbagi dengan dia dan merelakan sebagian ruang privacy kita yang dulu selalu kita tutup rapat denganya…
setelah semua bisa dilakukan
kita masih harus berjuang menghadapi “godaan-godaan” cowok-cowok tetangga atau pria-pria sekitar kita yang sangat menggiurkan…..
bahkan terkdang jauh lebih menggiurkan daripada milik sendiri memang rumput tetangga lebih hijau…
bahkan ketika kita sudah akan melanglangkah ke pelaminan pun kita masih harus berjuang…
berjuang dalam menjawab pertanyaan-pertanyan
is he the one??
would i be happy??
is he gonna treat me good??
bahkan life after marriage pun penuh dengan perjuangan!
hhhhh
ya ampuuunnnnn
gk gampang yaaaaaa
still…………..
its feel good to be in love…
gk tau kenapa….

arghhhhhhhhh….

take me away from here…..
away…very far away……
from you…..
ends my suffer
ends my quest
ends my question

its better if i’m not around
its much better if youre not around

then my world will be ok!

bawa pergi jauh kebimbangan
yang hanya mendatangkan kesengsaraan

bawa pergi jauh segala yg ada pada dirimu
yang membuat ak tak lagi dapat memijak bumi
tak dapat berfikir dengan akal sehat

bawa pergi jauhn kebimbangan tentangmu
karena semua tak akan jadi nyata

pergi jauh wahai kebimbangan
biarkan kal sehat dan hatiku sendiri
biarkan ak jalani hari seperti adanya hari kemarin…

Lyrics to Beyonce Irreplaceable

To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet that’s my stuff - Yes
If I bought it nigga please don’t touch
And keep talking that mess, that’s fine
But could you walk and talk at the same time
And It’s my mine name that is on that Jag
So remove your bags let me call you a cab

Standing in the front yard telling me
How I’m such a fool - Talking about
How I’ll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he’ll be here in a minute - baby

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don’t you ever for a second get to thinking you’re irreplaceable

So go ahead and get gone
And call up on that chick and see if she is home
Oops, I bet ya thought that I didn’t know
What did you think I was putting you out for?
Cause you was untrue
Rolling her around in the car that I bought you
Baby you dropped them keys hurry up before your taxi leaves
Standing in the front yard telling me
How I am such a fool - Talking about
How I’ll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he’ll be here in a minute - baby

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I will have another you by tomorrow
So don’t you ever for a second get to thinking you’re irreplaceable

So since I’m not your everything
How about I’ll be nothing
Nothing at all to you
Baby I wont shead a tear for you
I won’t lose a wink of sleep
Cause the truth of the matter is
Replacing you is so easy

To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
To the left
Everything you own in the box to the left

To the left
To the left

Don’t you ever for a second get to thinking you’re irreplaceable

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he’ll be be here in a minute - baby

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I can have another you by tomorrow
Don’t you ever for a second get to thinking you’re irreplaceable

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I could have another you in a minute
matter fact he’ll be be here in a minute - baby

You must not know about me
You must not know about me
I can have another you by tomorrow
Don’t you ever for a second get to thinking you’re irreplaceable

I…can’t get out of bed today
Or get you off my mind
I just can’t seem to find a way to leave the love behind

I ain’t trippin
I’m just missin you
You know what I’m sayin
You know what I mean

You kept me hanging on a string
Boy you make me cry
I tried to give you everything
But u just gave me lies

I ain’t trippin
I’m just missin you
You know what I’m sayin
You know what I mean

Every now and then when I’m all alone
I be wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but u never do
I feel like such a fool
There’s nothing I can do
I’m such a fool for you

I can’t take it
What am I waiting for?
My heart still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it
The way I could before…

I hate you
But I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
It’s true I’m stuck on you

My love’s a broken record that’s been skipping in my head
I keep singing yesterday
Why we gots to play these games we play?

I ain’t trippin
I’m just missin you
You know what I’m sayin
You know what I mean

Every now and then when I’m all alone
I be wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say u want me back but u never do
I feel like such a fool

I can’t take it
What am I waiting for?
My heart still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it
The way I could before…

I hate you
But I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
It’s true I’m stuck on you

Every now and then when I’m all alone
I be wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say u want me back but u never do
I feel like such a fool
There’s nothing I can do
I’m such a fool for you

I can’t take it
What am I waiting for?
My heart still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it
The way I could before…

I hate you
But I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
I hate you but I love you
I can’t stop thinking of you
Don’t know what to do
I’m stuck on you

arghh……..
jangan biarkan ak terjebak
terjebak dalam situasi yang tidak diinginkan oleh akal sehatku
tapi hatiku sangat menginginkannya…..

bawa aku pergi dari sini
jauh
dan tak kembali lagi
(walau tak mungkin…..hiks…..)